halfway gone

Time is so fleeting except when you are young. I wish we were born with the knowledge of how precious time is and that tomorrow comes quickly enough. I can remember being in 7th grade and thinking that it would be forever before I was a senior and all I could do is wish for time to hurry up!!!! Now I am looking back on 30 years since I walked the halls of Captain Shreve. I am getting closer to being another kind of senior and this time I want time to go as slow as it did back then!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh another fall!!!! Took Chloe to the park so Scott, Kelly and I could photograph her and down in the creek was the perfect spot. Only thing is the rocks were slimey and I lost my balance. BOOM down I went with camera in hand, but I managed to hold it above the water as Kelly clicked away taking pictures of my wallowing in the water and Scott tried to come help me get up but he was laughing way to much. FINALLY someone got my camera and somehow got into Kelly's hand and she began snapping pictures with MY OWN CAMERA!!!! I don't just laugh at other's when they fall, I was laughing at myself. But here it is almost a week later and my hip and back hurts still. My life in a nutshell!

Falling

You can fall in love, you can catch a falling star, you can wish for Fall, or you can be like me and just fall. Fall up stairs, fall over a hula hoop, fall over your dog, or fall down the stairs. Which is what I did yesterday. Four stinking steps and I go tumbling down! No broken bones but I sure thought I broke my ankle. So I went to the Convenient Care Clinic to get x-rays but it's only a sprain. I was given a gel splint and some pain pills before being sent on my way. They both worked wonders and I was able to sleep!

That's me physically. Spiritually I am trying to grow. Grow through prayer and worship. Becoming more involved in peoples lives and ways that I can help. But I have such a long way to go!

Julie and Julia

Loved the movie, just wished I had something to blog about. I have never been a writer but I love to jabber on about nothing. I just have to think about "nothing" to say.

Photographed a family on Jan 1st. One of the subjects was a very good-looking young man. Kelly, my sister, thinks "hmmmm wonder if he is single?" so she asks his mom and he is. He messaged me today wondering who we had in mind for him, so I gave him my niece's name. Will it go anywhere? Only time and they can tell.

message

I think I got it all wrong. I thought God wanted me to say something, but now I think God wants to say something to me. Whenever my family gets together, or I can spend time with really good friends I feel such joy and this overwhelming feeling of love and belonging. But God wants me to feel this towards not just my friends and family but towards everyone, and if I can do this I will be in His Will. And oh the plans He has for me. It is scary to think I will be taken from my comfort zone of familiarity but just knowing that God is calling me and I think I am hearing Him is B I G. Please don't let me miss this. Let me hear You Lord. I want only to please You!

Jesus

I wish I could write songs, but my talent lies elsewhere. Songs can bring me back to a time I had forgotten or a feeling I had hidden within me. But more than just wanting to write songs I wished I could write songs to Jesus. Jesus Messiah.....love that song. I'ld need a Savior....wow, moves my soul. How Great Thou Art....no other song brings me to that special place of worship like this one.

What would I say in a song to Him? I am going to pray and ask for words in a dream. Maybe this will be my heart song to my Lord, my Jesus.

2010

Time is fleeting and I don't think I have spent my time wisely. I couldn't wait to graduate, but then when I did I wished I was in school again. I couldn't wait to have kids, then I spent my time wishing they were this age or that. Now I just wish I had paid more attention to the moments instead of wanting a different one. I want time to slow down but it keeps moving at an ever increasing pace. Yesterday I was 21 and today I am 47. I don't want tomorrow, not right now. I want today. I want to live today, not just wish it away. And today has been the best. I have a family that loves me and I love them. I have a Father in Heaven that has a message for me, but not just for me. I think He wants to use to me to say something. When I hear it, and then share it, will anyone listen? Will it mean anything to anyone other than me? I can't wait! Use me Lord. Fill me up with You and make me new! I love you.