2010

Time is fleeting and I don't think I have spent my time wisely. I couldn't wait to graduate, but then when I did I wished I was in school again. I couldn't wait to have kids, then I spent my time wishing they were this age or that. Now I just wish I had paid more attention to the moments instead of wanting a different one. I want time to slow down but it keeps moving at an ever increasing pace. Yesterday I was 21 and today I am 47. I don't want tomorrow, not right now. I want today. I want to live today, not just wish it away. And today has been the best. I have a family that loves me and I love them. I have a Father in Heaven that has a message for me, but not just for me. I think He wants to use to me to say something. When I hear it, and then share it, will anyone listen? Will it mean anything to anyone other than me? I can't wait! Use me Lord. Fill me up with You and make me new! I love you.